i am literally falling apart.....
i feel like im the most unwanted outcast of the world.....
i dont know what to do with myself and i swear im going crazy.....
-what an intense night-
i guess i am turning out to be my so called mother after all......
-natska ='/
Nine Years Later...
14 years ago
Nata, God has blessed you with amazing gifts and a chosen personality. unlike anyone else. because ONLY YOU can worship Him the way YOU do.
ReplyDeleteand because He has made your heart sensitive to certain things that other people's aren't, and because of the way God can and wants to specifically use YOU, satan is going to attack you right in those areas. he wants to DESTROY you. litterally kill you.
focussing on "i don't want to be like my mother," kind of has the mindset that you can be better than her on your own, with your own strength, which i'll tell you it won't last long.
and God knows that! that's why it's ALL ABOUT GRACE. you aren't, and won't ever be like your mother if you are living under the grace of Jesus Christ. you are free from that!
somehow the enemy has you thinking that you need to be better, you need to try harder, you need to be nicer, you need people to like you.
well i got news for ya sista, you don't! and this is old news to you, but a reminder is always good.
Ephesians 2:4-8
"But because of his GREAT LOVE FOR US, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by GRACE you have been saved. And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus, in order that in the coming ages he might show the INCOMPARABLE riches of his grace, EXPRESSED IN HIS KINDNESS to us in Christ Jesus. For it is by GRACE you have been saved, through FAITH—and this NOT FROM YOURSELVES, it is the gift of God--NOT BY WORKS, so that no one can boast"
Galations 2:21
"I do not set aside the grace of God, for if righteousness could be gained through the law, Christ died for nothing!"
i know this is like crazy long, but this is something God has been showing me. so it's cool to share it with you. but just accepting His grace, and having FAITH in that is what it's about. you are FORGIVEN. he makes us righteous because of his merciful kindess. that's so crazy to me!! and sooo cool!
ummm so i kinda just wrote random stuff..idk if this makes sense or is even encouraging or something you needed hear. but i love you and i'm praying for you :)
Proverbs 3:5-6
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean NOT ON YOUR OWN UNDERSTANDING;
6 in ALL YOUR WAYS acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.
-mad
im speechless..........wow thanks mad-is-on..alot!
ReplyDeleteyu really got me gurl aha BOOM! thank yu chicka these verse are perfect! ;o
-nata
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