...

Shalom??
...Shaloooom????

Is anybody there?....SHAAAALOOOOM?!

***ChristmasSleepover?***

***So I (and others) think that it would be a grand idea to have a sleepover thingy thing after the fallstar sweater party shindig on friday.***

SOOOO let me know what you think.

Kaite B., idk if you're able to, but i hope sooo!!


madisonrochelletopper

wait...what?!

my grades for the quarter were posted....
i got:
A in sign language
A in biology lab
B- in biology lecture!!(the really hard class)
B+ in trig!!

i was soooo surprised and sooo stinkin happy!! i seriously have no idea how i got a B- in biology! only by Jesus!! thank you so much for all the prayers :)

wowyyyy i'm blown away!!!!!! :D :D


mmmmmmmmadison

Oh Relief, I missed you.

I am officially DONE with fall quarter!!! thank you Lord!
I still haven't gotten my grades back, but I'm feeling good about it. whatever i get, i get. so whateva.

It's so weird when you finish something...i remember back before this quarter started. what was it...3 months ago?
before i do something big, go somewhere, or start something new i always think about how i feel at the moment, try to imagine what might happen in the days, weeks, months to come, and how i'm going to end up at the end. idk if any of you do the same. it's so weird being at the other end of the 3 months. what did i even really accomplish?
hmmm
so going into this school year was right after i got back from Europe. during that trip for some reason i really felt God preparing me for a hard/crazy/crappy next couple months. i wasn't exactly sure what He ment by that, but as i lived my life these few months, He was totally right.
i know you pretty much know what's happened. not all of it obviously, but the big stuff. it all started with Heather moving away, a friend i had grown so close to that it felt like i was saying goodbye to a twin sister. it sucked. i felt really alone...even at church and in small group. we had made so many plans together on what our last year of high school together was going to be like, not realizing that we were already living it. following that, bernice left, my friend hilary went to africa, i rarely got to see my other close friend olivia, the people i thought would be there for me kind of weren't (and don't worry, i'm not meaning you girlies). but during this God opened my eyes to how much i rely on other people and the security they give me. the way that i can shadow them, or hide behing them. the way that i use them to speak for me because i don't want to put myself out there. and it's still a struggle for me because that's kind of how God made me, but i know He was growing me and stretching me...putting me in foreign and uncomfortable situations to reveal more of who He is. He needs to be who i shadow, who i hide behind, who speaks for me.
and during all of this i kept remembering that i knew this was going to happen. i knew this part of my life was going to be hard becaue God told me it would be. but it was still hard to trust Him. it was still hard to go to Him with stuff because i didn't know what to say. all i could say was...help.
and He's showing me that that's all i need to do.
Proverbs 3:5-6
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
6 In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct[a] your paths.

what else has happened?
i got a car. i got a job. i turned 18. that in itself is unbelievable to me. i know it's still so young, but when i was younger i always would picture what it would be like to be 18. what i would know, who i would hang out with, what i would do with my life. i feel like i know nothing and i have no idea what i'm doing with my life after this year. but i guess that's the exciting part of it all, huh? ;)

i don't know where i'm going with this or why i'm even posting this. haha i've just been in a thinking mood the past couple days.

anyway, another thing God layed on my heart during the Europe trip was how He wanted me to be more of a leader. and i knew He wanted me to start a Bible study, but i didn't, and still don't, really know what He meant by that. i was honestly really nervous about it. Heather was going to help me, but obviously she moved so my security was once again pulled away. something we learned on the mission trip was that ministry requires vulnerability. Tanner kept bugging me about that and always asked me when i was going to start a bible study. it was nice to finally have someone challenging me instead of me always pushing other people, you know?
well the study is up and running...i'm not sure how to handle it, but i'm praying that i will be senstive to His spirit and what He wants to speak to me and the girls.

so i still don't know where i'm going with this.
basically, september through now has been extremely weird. there were so many times when i felt alone, when i felt like i wanted to cry but for some reason my body doesn't physically know how (haha), when i felt peaceful, content, uncomfortable, confused. i know it's all part of life. and i thank God for what He's taught me and how i learned it even thought it's been hard.
right now i feel relieved. and oh, how've i've missed that feeling.


Ecclesiastes 3

1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,

3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,

4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,

5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,

7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,

8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

9 What does the worker gain from his toil? 10 I have seen the burden God has laid on men. 11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end. 12 I know that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they live. 13 That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil—this is the gift of God. 14 I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that men will revere him.

22 So I saw that there is nothing better for a man than to enjoy his work, because that is his lot. For who can bring him to see what will happen after him?


Madison.

bonding.

i was laughing and kinda like joking around a lil with my dads gf....it was weiirrrddd.....but good. the end.
-natska

life is like a bowl of soup

soo im slowly but surely opening up (at home) and its..hmmm kool? i guess hah. ive just been having more of a positive outlook on things and not taking things so personally and just being to so "ugghhhhhh!" about things and when people talk to me. (at thy home) and like im just more positive these days haha thats all i can say about that really. i helped make zupa tescana with muh dads gf...werd. never in a million yeees would i have thought i would help her fold clothes. let them vaacuum my room just cuz. aaand oor even talk to her.hah...*actually in a million years i think that possibly would happen) buuut anywho. uhm. God is good and softening and opening up my heart for life its self as i know it ;) <3 yallllss haha
-natska ;)

read in a british accent

Let the godly ones exult in glory; let them sing for joy.
psalm 149:5

He will redeem my soul in peace from the battle which is against me.
psalm 55:18

It does not depend on the man who wills or the man who runs, but on God who has mercy. romans 9:16

He has satisfied the thirsty soul, and the hungry soul he has filled with what is good. psalm 107:9



kQQQQQQQQQQQ?
i miss everyone. i know im crazy. and weird. but i still have the hope of growing out of it right? i shall cling to that thread of light........oh boy i must go......

again

sooo i know i always talk about school on here...buuuuuut it's almost over!! praise God!!
but that means finals.

so here's the deal.
i have 2 exam's tomorrow (which i need to hardcore study for [rhyme] today) and then i have 2 final's on monday. and they are my hardest classes on the same day. but it gets better:
on monday for my biology class (which i hope i even pass) i have an exam and final back to back! which is crazy. yuck. then a trig final after that. :/

aahhhhh i'm starting to stress about it all but God keeps reminding me to "trust in the lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understading"

but the crazy/cool thing is that i feel so much happier than i did earlier in the school year when everything was going downhill. God has been giving me His joy, and when i'm walking between classes or even when i'm at work i'll hum a worship song, pray, whatever, and my mood is totally better.

i've been working on keeping in mind that in whatever i do (school, even getting bad grades, serving picky old people) i want to praise jesus and it kinda helps put things into perspective.
like...
what really matters anyway? what is going to further the kingdom of God and bring glory to him?
i don't think doing bad in one class is going to really matter. i was talking to my friend about this and she was telling me that God doesn't care at all about grades and stuff, He's going to look at my heart towards it. am i trying my best? or am i slacking off... you know? i don't know if this makes sense lol
and at work. who cares if a table of oldies has to wait a little longer for their food, or if i mess up an order. am i showing the love of Jesus to my coworkers? to my supervisor? to the people i'm serving?

hmmmm idk

i need to go study my brains out.

PRAY PRAY PRAY for me



100%Topper

k im weird.

definite good night tonight...sorry katie b i was all ehhh emotional. but uhh. i had to get it out some how right? bahaha :S oh dear. but uh worship was SOO GOOD. even had a little convo with james about it on facebook a few minutes ago hahaha anywhoo. uhm. i was in the car with my dad and i just wanted to rip him apart and say WHYYY DO THE HEAVENS DENY ME?!!! (i hate the wind its so loud and scary ;(((( ) and then he turned down the radio, cuz i turned it up so it wouldnt be so awkward in the car ride home haha and we just start like choosing names and making stoopid jokes about names and stuff in the car..like total bondage time with him...-soo weird- but it was cool cuz i thought he would be mad for some dumb reason. but total opposite day i guess lol and uhh like i was thinking about forest as a baby name for my sis haha..(JUSTTT thinking it) cuz a kid in one of my classes is named forest. and i was like "hey, what about forest haha" and freakin my DAD.....romo of all romo!more like european of all europe....eans haha he has the neeeeerrrv to tell me..while hes driving.."RUN FOREST RUN"! i laughed so bad i was like...who are yu!!?!?!!?!? HOW DO YU EVEN NO WHAT THAT MEANS?!? haha and ever since then it was just a funny good..pretty happy night i guess so far...which is a bit unusual. thank yu jesus! just wanted to share this. b/c its kinda nice to come home happy for one yu know?....and we were listening to christmas music..uhhhh i think i might have enjoyed it ALITTLE BIT! but shhhhh! dont tell anyone! =o...lol ;)
-nata (grinch)

scardey cats!

i think yall are scared to post up a new one'a these..so alright alright yu have forced meeeeee to write one for yur entertainment...yes. iiii said it watch out cuz look who is on the stage now?! (oh snap! who is that girl? people start murmuring to eachother) TIS III THE GREAT?!.......im just nata guys no worries ;). anywhooo. back to business. i love becky and shawn crull they crack the yoke outta me!!! oy geez! whatta life. haha uhm. my sister is due on the 2nd. oh snap which is wednesday! ahh! hmm we will see oooooh lord have mercy on that child ;)...skool! boring. and i wanna sleepin in! ugh. i hate working on this stuff. im gonnna find a job soon and thatll be good enough for me. exceeeeept for the dumb fact i have to finish high skooool.. oy. life!..(katie boyle yu know what that means:P) some convo that twas heh heh heh anyways. uhm. this is random and makes no sense what so everrrr so im gonna leave yu with this thought. if yu ever had a puma..what would yu do with it? ;) oh christmas.muahahaha

-grinch! -natska

biiiingo baby

i got a test back today and i got an A on it. im pretty excited about it!
im still pretty sick but my body feels better...but truely im not bahahaha
but anyways. i was gonna say. if all yu darlings could be praying for my sister alina. she is expecting her 2nd baby ANY DAY NOW!!! its a boy aaand uhh anything could go wrong (we all know that) but if everyone could keep her on their minds and be praying for the pragnancy and birth and all that jazz it would be greatly appreciated. THANKS A BUNCH! -scooby (nata)

i don't know whyyyyy

AAHHH! i got another test back today and i did bad again!! it's seriously like a joke now. but a really really not funny one.
i don't know what to do! i felt good going into the test and even after it, so i was super surprised to see my grade. this quarter has been really crappy for me.

please be praying for a miracle in my grades! time for studying! retaining information! all that stuff.

on the plus side, i got another trig test back and i did the best i've ever done in that class so far. which still isn't as good as i'd hope, but whatever.


grrrrrr. gr. gr.


Madison

ummm....

......so im thinkin we should pray for mads study. uhhh. yep. I dont know if I should say more....i don't trust me with words at the moment...not that i usually do....ahhhhh....


katieeee......?

rather strange. blather mange

i dont know what that means. hah! i had a speech due today....and i presented it in front of the class.. i was super nervous cuz i hate being in front of people and doing something.....which is really odd now that i think of it cuz like....everything i wanna do..and everything i do do,is exactly that! haha whatta weirdo. i love dancing. if i perform its on stage lol. violin? stage. theater/acting? uhhh helllooooo i think i got myself quit the categories....well anyways hm hm hmmmm. my back is in pain due to i have no clue. but i think my speech went fairly well...i got an A- on it...(but i dont no if he included the extra credit for dressing up) but hey! at least its an A ;)......-minus- lol anyways....just sharin for yalls. and im trying to fundraise moola for my anahiem trip in april for orchestra. and i havent even sold one box of chocolate yet! and others are on like ther e4th box ah! but idk...ive been thinking about bringing the box on wednesdays. so if people wanna buy a choco. bar for a buck. that would be helpful for me aaand there tummy's ;) but im to weirded out by the idea so eh. i guess imma pass on that.....buuuut that was truely random...the teacher said my speech was good..but long. (5 minutes helloooo) and that i guess i laughed at my own jokes?...uhhh i dont really think i said any....very nice roosevelt.thanks alot hahahaahahaha jk ;) love yuh all i be prayin for yuhs aaaandd mmmm life. yu live yu learn the lack of love. HAH i made that up just now..dont even make sense but ANYWAYS! BYYEEEE

-nata bata. -yes, i practically aam a drunk ;P

it's a ghetto life

sooo i just wanted to share this story with you.
p.s. i slept throught the whole thing, this is my mother's perspective.


ok so i first heard that something happened last night by looking at my dad's status update on facebook.haha poor. so i asked my mom and this is basically what happened.

my mom was laying in bed last night and she heard ryan come home around 12ish. then i guess she half fell asleep but woke up again around 1 because she heard an alarm going off outside. she got up and looked out her window which looks striaght out the front of my house. she saw a white honda parked right behind my brothers car (which was on the street in front of my house) and she thought my bro's alarm was going off so she told my dad and he bolted downstairs. still half asleep. haha as he was going downstairs he yelled to my mom to call the cops so she did and then looked out the window and saw 2 kids get out of the honda and run like the hurricane winds. she told the cops what was going on and looked out the window again and saw the car IN OUR YARD. ??? it broke through the fence and left tire marks in our grass. basically it was hot wired, stolen, and when the kids were turning right the wheel locked in place, they panicked and didn't get the car in park, only 2nd gear, they hit the road, and the car hit the fence. haha we still don't know who's alarm was going off but praise God it did so ryan's or my car wasn't stolen!
so the cops came and checked everything out. apparently the police dude was talking super loud and my mom told him to be quiet cuz she had kids sleeping. haha oh mother. they brought the kanine unit everything! crazy. they towed the car. yeah i guess that's it.

so now we have 2 huge holes in the fence because on halloween, some other kids bashed part of the fence in.

other attacks on our house include:
christmas ornament filled with paint chucked at the side of our house.
graffitti on our garage door
graffitti on our fence (lots)

i know there's more...but i can't think of it.

i guess that's just life in the ghetto...


-Madizzle fo shizzle

so so so churchish

so uh i just gotta say since church and katie b's talk. i have been having greater days than i have had for a while. like i dont exactly know what it is. but i just tried it out. "todays gonna be a good day ;)" (kiss baby joe goodbye and off to skool) but anywhoo uhm. ya thats been workin out for me real good the past few/two days ;) my attitude is kinda changing and im kinda seeing things in like different perspectives i guess yu could say. im becoming more open which is pretty cool in a way......just wanted to tell yall that. wednesday was real good love yuhs hope yu can go to the kids coral thing. -starts at 6 (helpers have to be there at
- <3 natska...actually nolly..this gurl doesnt wanna pernounce nata or natalya so she i guess is calling me nolly.... sooooooooo from now on i guess im nata natalya nertis neeto natska nato nolly serfinch darwin sarafinchan ;P haha darwin=my teacher said he was gonna call me that cuz something about the finch or something i dont remember but i was like ehhh no. haha anyways...sorry this is dumb babble babble babble ;) SEE YUHH!!!

life.

i am literally falling apart.....
i feel like im the most unwanted outcast of the world.....
i dont know what to do with myself and i swear im going crazy.....
-what an intense night-
i guess i am turning out to be my so called mother after all......
-natska ='/

me old back

yo yo yo

ok so i'm not feeling well. i'm suuuuper tired, achy, cold, coughing, headache...not cool.
and i'm supposed to work 3 days in a row which is exhausting when i dont feel well.
if you could be praying for me that'd be pretty stinkin rad

thanks ladies


madisonRtopper

a-wakening nightmare

thoughts race. see her face. hear her voice. is she even worthy enough to be called "she"? more like "It". what if the world depended on her.....all hell would break lose. emotions rush. anger is stirred. losing grip. memories appear as if they had never left my mind. "whyyyy do the heavens deny me?!", "it" screams, "it" yells, but to cover my ears from the putrid sound is nearly impossible! why is there someone on earth like this? who does she think she is? so many questions to ask but none can be answered. silent prayers. rushing pulse, words wont come out. teary eyed.racing thoughts.why oh why..is there an end to this circle of dreary death and no good worldly mindset? money, fame, cars, men, life of "luxury", is this even worth all the pain yu put us through? has it ever occured that no matter how crazy people think yu are. mom is mom. no changing that...but if only something changed the outlook, or unblinded the fold of ungodly broken shame,misery, and jealousy out from on top of yur eyes would yu truely see how we feel deep down inside? i suppose im becoming my WORST nightmare.....witch or mother?....(so ive been told)

-natska-witch.serfinch.

terminal parking

hurried thoughts, rushed hugs, your last night. full bags. "I love you" never meant so much.your my comedian. your goodbye wave says goodbye to so much more than just you. he says goodbye to his true love. they say farewell to a best friend, or a sister. i say so-long to both. long distance relationships. your bags hold more than clothes. your taking sweet memories. your taking a piece of me. the foggy drive, the airport lines, the elevator, the escalator. your sweet kiss on my cheek. it stings. you mean so much to me. one last wave. one last hug. once your out of sight, a sniffled prayer. the elevator back down filled with hurt and stifled sobs. new york yells hello as we are crying whispered goodbyes. hannah mariah easley. sister friend. she made me cry and made me laugh more than anyone else ever could. goodbye babe.

(my sister just moved to new york)


-Audi...:(

so the TRUTH comes out.

ive been feelin....not so hot lately. ive been missing people TOOONNSS aand other ish thats been happening with relationships such as family.....and others heh. i really want us all to hangout one day..someday soon again. oy. "small group sleepover heeeeyyyyy ;)" *yu sing that* but anyways lol. i just wanna let yall know that i be wantin to see yu cats some day soon and that i misss yu a bunch aaand ;( yeah. love yall chicky's -natska

donald miller keeps me up late

There is Someone who loves us so much, and so we can love other people purely and not for selfish gain, so that our relationships can be sincere, so we don't have to worry about whether we feel lonely, so we can stop kicking ourselves around, so that we dont depend on other people to tell us were important or valued because even when they do its not enough, so that we can lose all self awarness and find ourselves for the first time by being told who we are by the only Being who has the authority to know, the Creator.


quiet katie (the name i believe beautiful Bernice bestowed upon me some time ago)

i like blue.

An Adopted Daughter

Laaaadies!!
this is Madison.
So I got an email update from my friend Hilary who is living in Africa for about 2 and a half months. She's at a missions training school called Iris. Well anyway, she sent this email about what she's been learning and I think it's awesome! I wanted you to read it too! :D

here it is:

"We have heard from both Rolland and Heidi Baker. When Heidi spoke, she shared on the Spirit of Adoption. Her sermon was based off of Ephesians 1. She used the illustration of the village children who come into the centre. When kids come they are shy and timid and afraid of the dogs. The children would rather sit in a dark corner by themselves instead of playing with other kids. Once the children have figured out that they are loved and are chosen to be here, then their entire attitude changes. They begin taking ownership of the centre, they come to eat and talk with everyone, they run to the people for hugs and love, and they begin to command the dogs to go sit down. So the lesson was that we can walk in the identity that God has called us to. We can’t just walk around earth with the attitude of “if God wants to use me or do this than He will.” No! We have to walk in our identity! We have been chosen to be holy and blameless before Him! He chose us for His pleasure, He finds pleasure in us. We are not just tolerated, we are welcomed. This has been sealed by Holy Spirit and we are God’s possession. Now if we are walking in this attitude we can lay hands on the sick and see them healed; we can walk confidently and worship him because we are His children. At one point Heidi asked “What is our identity?” My friend Brandy shouted out “Fullness!” It then hit me, that yes we are called to live in fullness in Christ. If Christ walked in it, then I can walk in it. And so can you. Also, we learned from Heidi that being a "sold-out Christian" doesn’t mean we have to go and sell everything and live with nothing in the dirt. Being a sold-out Christian means we can live in freedom, wherever we are. There is no condemnation whether we are living in the dirt with sick and hurting children, or sitting wrapped up in a blanket watching our favorite movie on our big screen and eating Mizithra cheese spaghetti. Your identity is how you will choose to act. If you see yourself as an Orphan, then you will live as an Orphan timid and fearful; but if you see yourself as an adopted son or daughter of the most high King, then that is how you will live; as a King or queen, walking in love and power. So walk out your identity!

May Jesus minister to you right now and call you as a King or Queen, his beloved!"

so yeah, that's totally what we've been talking about in small group too. cool stuff :)

-------MADISON TOPPER

HE is our God and we belong to HIM

"Cast your cares on the Lord , He will sustain you; He will never let the righteous fall." -Psalm 55:22

"As for God, His way is perfect; the word of the Lord is flawless. He is a shield for all who take refuge in Him." -Psalm 18:30

"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, trust also in me." -John 14:1

Love you all,
-Audi

The great I AM

So my sister's moving to New York. It's making me sad. BUT I'm continuing to read the word a whole bunch and praying a lot. She moves innn...five days. meh:( This is a blessing but I'm just going to miss her. Don't mean to complain. I'm praying for all of you babes. I miss you. See you tomorrow. Giraffe kisses:*
-Audi

does anyone do this?

does anyone ever go on here anymore? oy. i feel like a loser cuz im waiting to read about my lovely's lifes up in the couve. hmm...i guess i have no life hahaha ;P
-nata

one high

i was at lunch today, walking around cuz i didnt wanna go sit with the people i normally sit with..i dont no y. but i was just walking around the skool. then i sit at a RANDOM spot in front of this one building. and i look to my left alittle and theres this girl (freshman). and she is crying. shes like balling her eyes out sitting by herself with her hood on trying to hide her face...i look at her and shes like wiping her face and everything. and so i just felt that i needed to go up there and talk to her. like somethin in my heart told me to go up to her and ask her what was up. so i walk around her a little sneaky peeky-ish. and im like hey. are you ok? and shes like ya. and im like well u dont really look like it, whats goin on? boyfriend? friends? people being jerks? family? i know im a complete stranger buut maybe you wanna talk about it?. (shes still trying to pull herself together a little) and shes like "well...i just had p.e. and we had to run a mile and i cant even run a mile. i lose my breathe real easily and i cant even run as fast as the other girls. somethings wrong with my chest or something. im just not fit. and im bigger than everyone else in the class"(she wasnt even thaaat big) and im like "girl! dont even worry about that, God made your body how it is and he looovveess it so you gotta be thankful that yu even have those thangs you know what i mean? he loves you for who you are and dont get discouraged that you cant run a mile. shoot iiii cant even run a mile. i run outta air after like 2 steps haha" and shes like "well...its just that i cant fit in as well as other people can. im not good at fitting in." and nata says "there is no reason you should haave to fit in. you just have to be yourself and people will start coming to you and WANT TO be friends with you. thats kinda what happened to me; im new here i dont no anyone and im just walkin around and being myself and if people wanna be my friend then im like ok (only if there my kinda people mostly) haha so dont even worry about that ish. no biggy! you dont have to fit in to make or have friends or whatever" and shes like "well i guess" -or somethin like that. then the bell rings and i ask for her name and if i can pray for her. and her name is brittney and she was all yeah sure. so i was like ok. cool. somethin to share with muh lady's aha. but yeah idk. hopefully shes fine now? ;)? i thought it was pretty cool i guess.... i miss you girls p.s. idk about church tonight i have sooooo much homework aaand caca-ness ;/ -nata

need to be reminded

hey, you should watch this if you get the chance. it's about 5 mins, but a good reminder of how blessed we are.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KFZz6ICzpjI&feature=player_embedded


Mad.Is.On.

some words?

"I shall no longer ask myself if this or that is expedient but only if it is right. I shall do this, not because I am noble or unselfish but because life slips away, and because I need for the rest of my journey a star that will not play false to me, a compass that will not lie.

I shall do this, because I cannot find it in me to do anything else. I am lost when I balance this against that, I am lost when I ask if this is safe, I am lost when I ask if men will approve. Therefore I shall try to do what is right, and speak what is true." by a person


Not sure if this the sorta thing to put on here. But there it tis I suppose.
Katie ( I need a code name so as not to mixed up with lovely Boyle)

church of a kind

(ps. my first time bein on.) and i just wanna say that i couldnt go to crossroads on sunday. but uuh i went to this other church; rivers or life church, and i was kinda scared to go in it cuz its in like downtown portland and its a weirdish scary kinda building. but i went in obvioiusly. and just the people there were soooo welcoming it was fake! they were so loving. random people just came and introduced themselves and said welcome and invited us (my friend ruth and her sisters and i) to this little youth group get together thing on sunday nights at 6 just for teens. and we were complete strangers to them. but it was super that just two guys walked up and invited us to there home for a youth group thing and he gave us the address and everything and just gah! it was so awesome! and then.....i just really like that church is all hah. the sermin thing is kinda short. but man is it powerful!!!? i really liked it and it was just super touching i guess cuz these people were just on FIRE for the lord it gave me chiillills. oooowww but it was amazing. the end haha- <3nata

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it's madison

ok so i just wanted to ask for prayer for school stuff. i got 2 exams back today and i didn't do very well. one of them i did HORRIBLE on. like really really bad. so be praying that the teacher has grace and can let me do extra credit or something. and i have another exam next week, so i need prayer that i can memorize everything because it's A LOT. tissues, cells, bones, muscles, you know all that fun stuff.
sooo yeah...i'm kinda bumming about that, because i usually do pretty well with school. i'm honestly not that worried about it, i just want to be able to get my grade up somehow.

thank you! i love you all

$ store..

So, last night I wanted to go get coloring books and color..REAl bad! lol... Justin and I were heading out when I felt like I needed to bring Wilson in from the back yard...it was dark out and Im always thinking someones out to get him! lol..so I go grab him and bring to the back door down stairs. My mom comes to the door and and I told her where we were going, and she then suggested we go to the $ Store. So, Justin and I went there instead...we get inside and we go down the Halloween isle and he puts on this amazingly hideous Dino Hat! So, I get out my phone to take a pic and my phone kept taking black pictures..I tried again and as Im trying to figure all of this out this guy walks by us laughing...As I finally get a picture taken the guy walks up and says "So, you two must be who I'm looking for"! We go, what? And I'm thinking in my head ooooo Great we're in trouble for taking pictures in the $ Store! Then he says we'll, Im suppost to be looking for people who are trying on customs together and that appears to be what you two are doing". Justin and I go "yah I guess so". So, he goes "Can I pray for you two"? We, were both super excited and were like "Yes, WE would love that, we were just talking bout needing prayer in allot of ways". So, I start to explain to him about my friend Rachael who lost her mom. Then I starting to tell him how Justin was just saying how he really wanted clearity on being in Fallstar and some of the guys in the bad...Then a kid out of no where goes "HEY, I know you..your from that band" and as Justin started telling him about the band a couple other kids walk up and said the same thing. They were telling Justin what a great band they were and how impressed they were by what they were doing. :)

I mean come on! Talk about confirmation!!

P.S.----(All these people were a group who come together each Tuesday to pray and as they pray they yell out discriptions of who they need to find and pray for that nite..they make a list and go out to find these discriptions and pray!)


So, then...Justin asks prayer for us, and our relationship. And how we really want to get engaged and married but we dont know what steps to take or what we need to do to get started. Then one of the older guys started telling us how he just got married and how awesome it was. So, by this time we had 8 people around us and they layed hands on us and started to pray!

The spirit was soo heavy I started to cry and couldnt stop! The words they spoke over us were so powerful and meaningful. The boys praying for us were so young but had so much wisdom and the woman had such athority in her voice. After they were done praying for us we thanked them and hugged them all and the man who had just gotten married gave us $10 to start our wedding fund!

BUT the crazy thing about the $10 was that, Justin this week goes I think I'm going to start putting $10 aside each paycheck to start out and then I'll add more as I can for our wedding! And that $10 he wanted to put aside had to go towards a bill this month so he wasnt able to..

------>It was such confirmation in us starting to save and also it was his way of showing us he was already providing for us and not to be afraid!

GOD IS GOD AND GOD ALON! SO, LETS PRAISE HIM AND GLORIFY HIS HOLY NAME!

-I pray you are all blessed today by blessing others.
-Kt

Prayer Requests..

Please, be praying for my cousin Kendra. She just found out she had a miscarriage and lost her baby a couple of weeks ago. She has a rare disease called "" her placenta was still growing even after there was no baby inside. On top of it all they also found a cyst on her ovaries that can be cancerous, this was caused by her birth control. Please, pray for complete healing of the cyst and healing over the loss of a child.

Also, please be praying for my friend Rachel. Her mother died on last Sunday unexpectedly while hiking with their family up at multnomah Falls. After doing an autopsy today, they found she died from a heart disease that runs in their family. Something grew around her heart & shut it down. Her passing was painless. Prayer for peace and comfort in this hard time.

At work a family we have insureds son and friend were fishing up on a rail road track over looking a river, when the son's friend was hit by the train. The train runs about 85 mph and they didn't see it coming when they were walking to their car on the other side of the tracks. The boy we have insureds name is Dustin. Please, be praying for him and the boy's family. Dustin is having a hard time couping with his friends death.

Also, please keep my mom, Krissie in prayer. Her back has been giving her allot of issues lately, and its hard for her to get around and be active at work. Prayer for complete healing.

Thank you for all you're prayers, they are felt and so important.

I pray you're all blessed today by blessing others. -Katie

Ink

Hey girls, just wanted to update anyone who wanted to know on my friend Cristian's (yes that's how he spells it haha) sentencing. As you know he was charged guilty for a charge he didn't commit and now has to go to a class once a week for the next two years (on sexual harassment i think) and is on house arrest for two more months. I'm just asking for continual prayer for him and that God shows Cristian His face through all of this and that they can get a relationship established through all this awfulness. Thanks, God bless you guys, you're all in my prayers.

YAY Its Started!!!

This is goin to be a page where all my small group girls can share their days events..it can be even about what they ate for lunch and how amazing it was! What ever the lord speaks to you and moves you and you're heart each day. This is a way we can stay connected when we arent together! I love you and will see you all tonite! :)