so the TRUTH comes out.

ive been feelin....not so hot lately. ive been missing people TOOONNSS aand other ish thats been happening with relationships such as family.....and others heh. i really want us all to hangout one day..someday soon again. oy. "small group sleepover heeeeyyyyy ;)" *yu sing that* but anyways lol. i just wanna let yall know that i be wantin to see yu cats some day soon and that i misss yu a bunch aaand ;( yeah. love yall chicky's -natska

donald miller keeps me up late

There is Someone who loves us so much, and so we can love other people purely and not for selfish gain, so that our relationships can be sincere, so we don't have to worry about whether we feel lonely, so we can stop kicking ourselves around, so that we dont depend on other people to tell us were important or valued because even when they do its not enough, so that we can lose all self awarness and find ourselves for the first time by being told who we are by the only Being who has the authority to know, the Creator.


quiet katie (the name i believe beautiful Bernice bestowed upon me some time ago)

i like blue.

An Adopted Daughter

Laaaadies!!
this is Madison.
So I got an email update from my friend Hilary who is living in Africa for about 2 and a half months. She's at a missions training school called Iris. Well anyway, she sent this email about what she's been learning and I think it's awesome! I wanted you to read it too! :D

here it is:

"We have heard from both Rolland and Heidi Baker. When Heidi spoke, she shared on the Spirit of Adoption. Her sermon was based off of Ephesians 1. She used the illustration of the village children who come into the centre. When kids come they are shy and timid and afraid of the dogs. The children would rather sit in a dark corner by themselves instead of playing with other kids. Once the children have figured out that they are loved and are chosen to be here, then their entire attitude changes. They begin taking ownership of the centre, they come to eat and talk with everyone, they run to the people for hugs and love, and they begin to command the dogs to go sit down. So the lesson was that we can walk in the identity that God has called us to. We can’t just walk around earth with the attitude of “if God wants to use me or do this than He will.” No! We have to walk in our identity! We have been chosen to be holy and blameless before Him! He chose us for His pleasure, He finds pleasure in us. We are not just tolerated, we are welcomed. This has been sealed by Holy Spirit and we are God’s possession. Now if we are walking in this attitude we can lay hands on the sick and see them healed; we can walk confidently and worship him because we are His children. At one point Heidi asked “What is our identity?” My friend Brandy shouted out “Fullness!” It then hit me, that yes we are called to live in fullness in Christ. If Christ walked in it, then I can walk in it. And so can you. Also, we learned from Heidi that being a "sold-out Christian" doesn’t mean we have to go and sell everything and live with nothing in the dirt. Being a sold-out Christian means we can live in freedom, wherever we are. There is no condemnation whether we are living in the dirt with sick and hurting children, or sitting wrapped up in a blanket watching our favorite movie on our big screen and eating Mizithra cheese spaghetti. Your identity is how you will choose to act. If you see yourself as an Orphan, then you will live as an Orphan timid and fearful; but if you see yourself as an adopted son or daughter of the most high King, then that is how you will live; as a King or queen, walking in love and power. So walk out your identity!

May Jesus minister to you right now and call you as a King or Queen, his beloved!"

so yeah, that's totally what we've been talking about in small group too. cool stuff :)

-------MADISON TOPPER

HE is our God and we belong to HIM

"Cast your cares on the Lord , He will sustain you; He will never let the righteous fall." -Psalm 55:22

"As for God, His way is perfect; the word of the Lord is flawless. He is a shield for all who take refuge in Him." -Psalm 18:30

"Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, trust also in me." -John 14:1

Love you all,
-Audi

The great I AM

So my sister's moving to New York. It's making me sad. BUT I'm continuing to read the word a whole bunch and praying a lot. She moves innn...five days. meh:( This is a blessing but I'm just going to miss her. Don't mean to complain. I'm praying for all of you babes. I miss you. See you tomorrow. Giraffe kisses:*
-Audi

does anyone do this?

does anyone ever go on here anymore? oy. i feel like a loser cuz im waiting to read about my lovely's lifes up in the couve. hmm...i guess i have no life hahaha ;P
-nata

one high

i was at lunch today, walking around cuz i didnt wanna go sit with the people i normally sit with..i dont no y. but i was just walking around the skool. then i sit at a RANDOM spot in front of this one building. and i look to my left alittle and theres this girl (freshman). and she is crying. shes like balling her eyes out sitting by herself with her hood on trying to hide her face...i look at her and shes like wiping her face and everything. and so i just felt that i needed to go up there and talk to her. like somethin in my heart told me to go up to her and ask her what was up. so i walk around her a little sneaky peeky-ish. and im like hey. are you ok? and shes like ya. and im like well u dont really look like it, whats goin on? boyfriend? friends? people being jerks? family? i know im a complete stranger buut maybe you wanna talk about it?. (shes still trying to pull herself together a little) and shes like "well...i just had p.e. and we had to run a mile and i cant even run a mile. i lose my breathe real easily and i cant even run as fast as the other girls. somethings wrong with my chest or something. im just not fit. and im bigger than everyone else in the class"(she wasnt even thaaat big) and im like "girl! dont even worry about that, God made your body how it is and he looovveess it so you gotta be thankful that yu even have those thangs you know what i mean? he loves you for who you are and dont get discouraged that you cant run a mile. shoot iiii cant even run a mile. i run outta air after like 2 steps haha" and shes like "well...its just that i cant fit in as well as other people can. im not good at fitting in." and nata says "there is no reason you should haave to fit in. you just have to be yourself and people will start coming to you and WANT TO be friends with you. thats kinda what happened to me; im new here i dont no anyone and im just walkin around and being myself and if people wanna be my friend then im like ok (only if there my kinda people mostly) haha so dont even worry about that ish. no biggy! you dont have to fit in to make or have friends or whatever" and shes like "well i guess" -or somethin like that. then the bell rings and i ask for her name and if i can pray for her. and her name is brittney and she was all yeah sure. so i was like ok. cool. somethin to share with muh lady's aha. but yeah idk. hopefully shes fine now? ;)? i thought it was pretty cool i guess.... i miss you girls p.s. idk about church tonight i have sooooo much homework aaand caca-ness ;/ -nata

need to be reminded

hey, you should watch this if you get the chance. it's about 5 mins, but a good reminder of how blessed we are.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KFZz6ICzpjI&feature=player_embedded


Mad.Is.On.

some words?

"I shall no longer ask myself if this or that is expedient but only if it is right. I shall do this, not because I am noble or unselfish but because life slips away, and because I need for the rest of my journey a star that will not play false to me, a compass that will not lie.

I shall do this, because I cannot find it in me to do anything else. I am lost when I balance this against that, I am lost when I ask if this is safe, I am lost when I ask if men will approve. Therefore I shall try to do what is right, and speak what is true." by a person


Not sure if this the sorta thing to put on here. But there it tis I suppose.
Katie ( I need a code name so as not to mixed up with lovely Boyle)

church of a kind

(ps. my first time bein on.) and i just wanna say that i couldnt go to crossroads on sunday. but uuh i went to this other church; rivers or life church, and i was kinda scared to go in it cuz its in like downtown portland and its a weirdish scary kinda building. but i went in obvioiusly. and just the people there were soooo welcoming it was fake! they were so loving. random people just came and introduced themselves and said welcome and invited us (my friend ruth and her sisters and i) to this little youth group get together thing on sunday nights at 6 just for teens. and we were complete strangers to them. but it was super that just two guys walked up and invited us to there home for a youth group thing and he gave us the address and everything and just gah! it was so awesome! and then.....i just really like that church is all hah. the sermin thing is kinda short. but man is it powerful!!!? i really liked it and it was just super touching i guess cuz these people were just on FIRE for the lord it gave me chiillills. oooowww but it was amazing. the end haha- <3nata

1+1=48??

yo check it.
it's madison

ok so i just wanted to ask for prayer for school stuff. i got 2 exams back today and i didn't do very well. one of them i did HORRIBLE on. like really really bad. so be praying that the teacher has grace and can let me do extra credit or something. and i have another exam next week, so i need prayer that i can memorize everything because it's A LOT. tissues, cells, bones, muscles, you know all that fun stuff.
sooo yeah...i'm kinda bumming about that, because i usually do pretty well with school. i'm honestly not that worried about it, i just want to be able to get my grade up somehow.

thank you! i love you all

$ store..

So, last night I wanted to go get coloring books and color..REAl bad! lol... Justin and I were heading out when I felt like I needed to bring Wilson in from the back yard...it was dark out and Im always thinking someones out to get him! lol..so I go grab him and bring to the back door down stairs. My mom comes to the door and and I told her where we were going, and she then suggested we go to the $ Store. So, Justin and I went there instead...we get inside and we go down the Halloween isle and he puts on this amazingly hideous Dino Hat! So, I get out my phone to take a pic and my phone kept taking black pictures..I tried again and as Im trying to figure all of this out this guy walks by us laughing...As I finally get a picture taken the guy walks up and says "So, you two must be who I'm looking for"! We go, what? And I'm thinking in my head ooooo Great we're in trouble for taking pictures in the $ Store! Then he says we'll, Im suppost to be looking for people who are trying on customs together and that appears to be what you two are doing". Justin and I go "yah I guess so". So, he goes "Can I pray for you two"? We, were both super excited and were like "Yes, WE would love that, we were just talking bout needing prayer in allot of ways". So, I start to explain to him about my friend Rachael who lost her mom. Then I starting to tell him how Justin was just saying how he really wanted clearity on being in Fallstar and some of the guys in the bad...Then a kid out of no where goes "HEY, I know you..your from that band" and as Justin started telling him about the band a couple other kids walk up and said the same thing. They were telling Justin what a great band they were and how impressed they were by what they were doing. :)

I mean come on! Talk about confirmation!!

P.S.----(All these people were a group who come together each Tuesday to pray and as they pray they yell out discriptions of who they need to find and pray for that nite..they make a list and go out to find these discriptions and pray!)


So, then...Justin asks prayer for us, and our relationship. And how we really want to get engaged and married but we dont know what steps to take or what we need to do to get started. Then one of the older guys started telling us how he just got married and how awesome it was. So, by this time we had 8 people around us and they layed hands on us and started to pray!

The spirit was soo heavy I started to cry and couldnt stop! The words they spoke over us were so powerful and meaningful. The boys praying for us were so young but had so much wisdom and the woman had such athority in her voice. After they were done praying for us we thanked them and hugged them all and the man who had just gotten married gave us $10 to start our wedding fund!

BUT the crazy thing about the $10 was that, Justin this week goes I think I'm going to start putting $10 aside each paycheck to start out and then I'll add more as I can for our wedding! And that $10 he wanted to put aside had to go towards a bill this month so he wasnt able to..

------>It was such confirmation in us starting to save and also it was his way of showing us he was already providing for us and not to be afraid!

GOD IS GOD AND GOD ALON! SO, LETS PRAISE HIM AND GLORIFY HIS HOLY NAME!

-I pray you are all blessed today by blessing others.
-Kt

Prayer Requests..

Please, be praying for my cousin Kendra. She just found out she had a miscarriage and lost her baby a couple of weeks ago. She has a rare disease called "" her placenta was still growing even after there was no baby inside. On top of it all they also found a cyst on her ovaries that can be cancerous, this was caused by her birth control. Please, pray for complete healing of the cyst and healing over the loss of a child.

Also, please be praying for my friend Rachel. Her mother died on last Sunday unexpectedly while hiking with their family up at multnomah Falls. After doing an autopsy today, they found she died from a heart disease that runs in their family. Something grew around her heart & shut it down. Her passing was painless. Prayer for peace and comfort in this hard time.

At work a family we have insureds son and friend were fishing up on a rail road track over looking a river, when the son's friend was hit by the train. The train runs about 85 mph and they didn't see it coming when they were walking to their car on the other side of the tracks. The boy we have insureds name is Dustin. Please, be praying for him and the boy's family. Dustin is having a hard time couping with his friends death.

Also, please keep my mom, Krissie in prayer. Her back has been giving her allot of issues lately, and its hard for her to get around and be active at work. Prayer for complete healing.

Thank you for all you're prayers, they are felt and so important.

I pray you're all blessed today by blessing others. -Katie

Ink

Hey girls, just wanted to update anyone who wanted to know on my friend Cristian's (yes that's how he spells it haha) sentencing. As you know he was charged guilty for a charge he didn't commit and now has to go to a class once a week for the next two years (on sexual harassment i think) and is on house arrest for two more months. I'm just asking for continual prayer for him and that God shows Cristian His face through all of this and that they can get a relationship established through all this awfulness. Thanks, God bless you guys, you're all in my prayers.